There’s something to be said about the Catholic ritual of confession.  Releasing oneself of burdens or fears is transformative for the one doing the releasing.  Today it is my turn to come clean.

In my quest for greater understanding and self-realization I was having a conversation with God today and uncovered a big ah-ha for me.

I spend a greater amount of time than I’d like to admit in procrastination and avoidance.  What am I avoiding?  Negative judgment from you and from myself…..mostly from myself because let’s be real you probably could care very little as to how I live my life.

I’m scared to put myself out there, to be vulnerable, to really share because of what others might think of me.  Oh dear, am I really doing this?  Yep…at least until now.

An insight was shared with me today that hit me at a level deep enough to shatter this mis-belief, this fear of rejection.  Here’s the insight, “the more comfortable you can get with putting yourself out there the sooner you’ll see the results you intend”.  Does that make sense to you?  The more comfortable we get with who we really are the freer we feel and the easier it is to create what we truly want for our life.

I am the only one in the way of my dreams and you are the only one in the way of yours.  I don’t know if fear of ridicule or rejection stops you from your dreams, but it has stopped me long enough.

So it’s time to face my fear of your rejection.  Until this moment I’ve been afraid to tell you of my deepest dream, because what if it doesn’t come true….what will you think of me?!

My deepest dream is of living a lifestyle of freedom.  Freedom to live where I want.  Freedom to travel when and where I want.  Freedom to work within my passions from anywhere in the world.  Freedom to earn a substantial living for my family.

There, that wasn’t so bad!

Our culture tells us go to school, get well-educated, get a job, save for the future, etc.  Since I can remember my soul has been urging me to forgo the societal guidelines and follow my path towards that lifestyle of freedom.  And now after coming clean I can finally listen and follow that calling.

Cheers to freedom!  -joanne

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